Transitions

This past Friday had to be one of the hardest transitions I’ve had to endure. Brigitte and I drove Rey and his father to the airport, as he was embarking on a new adventure in his life called seminary. I had been dreading that moment for weeks and finally it had come and I of course I wasn’t ready. For days leading up to Friday I was an emotional wreck trying to hide it from Rey since he had enough on his mind the last thing he needed was to worry about me. Unfortunately I broke in front of Rey and didn’t want him to see my pain. Thankfully I was able to go a couple of days without completely breaking down, until that dread moment arose. As I kissed Rey goodbye I tried so hard to hold back the tears but I couldn’t, it was like trying to stop a damn with a piece of gum, impossible.

I know this transition is necessary in order for Rey to become the man the Lord has in store for him. I’m confident that he will accomplish many things and grow even stronger with his walk in the Lord. My prayer for him is that the Lord will continue to protect him, and guide him through the many obstacles that await, and give him the strength to press on with times get rough.

As for me, I know that in time things will get better and the tears will begin to dry up, however right now everything reminds me of him. It’s the oddest thing, I will drive past something and all of a sudden I can recall a complete conversation Rey and I had at that specific moment. The oddity of that statement is I can barely remember what I did the day before. So you could only image what kind of tricks my mind is playing on me. Talking to him is particularly hard since I look forward to hearing his voice and connecting with him, but hanging up is difficult to do. I know it’s coming when we’ll say our goodbyes and yet the tears will begin to run down my face once again.

I just want to say thank you to all who have been there for me and have allowed me to cry on your shoulder, and drag me out so that I’m not home sulking. I love you all.

Rey, I love you more than words can express and I miss you terribly…I’m looking forward to seeing you in a few weeks. Till then I will cherish our many talks.